,,,,,,,You're quite astonished as you're halfway down the hill and on your way to your first day of junior year. Your face still hurts from the night before but you ignore it as you approach [["Orange's house", your best friend]].You go up to her as you give her a hug. She rubs your cheek in confusion and asks what happen and if you wanna talk about it on the way to school.
[[//Walk and talk about it//|talking about it]] or [[//Tell her it's fine it's not a big deal//|ignoring it]](text-color: orange)[What happened to your face?]
I don't know. Last night something happened but it was all a blur...
(text-color: orange)[Oh, are you okay though?]
Yeah, I'm just glad to see you before we go to school. I'm excited for the rally!
(text-color: orange)[Me too! I'm happy to be with you too. :)]
We're almost at school! Let's get going.
[[Arriving at school]](text-color: orange)[What happened to your face?]
It's nothing don't worry about it! It only hurts a little.
(text-color: orange)[Oh okay! I'll be here if you ever wanna talk about it though. :)]
Okay! I'll keep that in mind. Look we're almost at school! I can't wait for the rally.
(text-color: orange)[Me too! We get to sit next to each other now too hehe.]
Yeah! I miss hanging out with you.
[[Arriving at school]] Arriving at school, you attend the rally! It's filled with a bunch of music and you spot your other friend, (text-color: purple)[Purple!] Once the rally is finished, you all split up from each other and head towards your classes at the sound of the bell. You wave goodbye and walk towards your [[first period class]].You sit down in your seat and make yourself comfortable. Looking up, the teacher introduces themselves and you examine who you know in the class. You spot a few friends, (text-color: blue)[Blue] and (text-color: green)[Green] and tell yourself that this class will be fine.
The bell rings after an hour and a half and you make your way to [[second period]].Once you arrive to your classroom, you see (text-color: purple)[Purple!] You sit next to her even though it seems as she's glaring at you. You ignore her intimidation and sit down right next to her. She jokingly hits you in the shoulder and asks why you didn't tell her that you were in the same class.
You chat a bunch, ignoring the teacher's introduction and suddenly the lunch bell comes. You tell her goodbye and you [[head to lunch.]]You go over and sit with your newly found friend group that you joined late last school year. (text-color: blue)[Blue] and (text-color: green)[Green] are sitting on a ledge, waiting for you to come by. You sit comfortably knowing that you have friends to enjoy your lunch and people to hang out with.
(text-color: blue)[Hey!! How were your other classes?]
Good! I have (text-color: purple)[Purple] in my class which is nice. I don't have any with (text-color: orange)[Orange] but I'll see her every morning because I walk with her to school and I'll most likely spend offroll with her as well. So no worries.
(text-color: green)[Oh, Blue! I saw] (text-color: magenta)[Pink] (text-color: green)[when I was walking to class. Are you guys officially together?]
(text-color: blue)[Yeah! Hehe she dropped me off at school today.]
Oh that's so cute! She seemed kinda scary but she talked to me on my way to third period for a quick second. She gave me some advice for the teacher since she had him last year.
(text-color: blue)[Awh that's nice. Yeah she can seem scary but she's really cool once you really get to know her.]
You hear the bell ring and you all start packing your things. You wave to your friends goodbye as you [[go to third period.]]It's the summertime and quite frankly, you're sitting inside your 75^^0^^ house. Scrolling through instagram, you come across a newly posted picture by someone on your track team and for some reason, butterflies sprouted in your stomach. You're not quite sure what to make out of it but it lingers on your mind for the rest of the break.
After going to bed for many nights, you finally tuck yourself in and your mind is racing at the thought of going to school once again tomorrow morning when suddenly your parents call you over to their room at 12:05am. You're unsure of what they're going to talk to you about but whatever it is, it doesn't seem well.
You come back to your room, a face filled with tears and a swollen cheek. You pray that this will be all over soon and try and [[//get some sleep.//|head to your best friend's house]]You arrive to third period and all you can think about is how you don't have a fourth period and that you're going to use that time to hang out with the (text-color: red)[Red], the girl you got butterflies for in the summer. Time could not go any slower.
Once you hear the bell ring, you stand up and are first to head out the door. You [[leave to go find Red]]You take out your phone and text her
[[//Hi!! Where are you? I'm talking to a few friends right now//|..,]]
[[//Hey! I'll be chilling in the quad, just let me know when you're ready to go!//|...]](text-color: red)[Hey! I just got out of class. I'll be waiting in the front of the school for you.]
Okay!! I'll be there in a minute. :)
(text-color: red)[Alright!]
[[head towards the front]] (text-color: red)[Okay!! Just got out of class, I'm gonna be walking towards the front of the school in a sec.]
Kk! I'll meet you there then.
(text-color: red)[Yee, see you soon :)]
*You liked the message*
[[head towards the front]]You see (text-color: red)[Red] and go up to her. You both chat for a bit as you show your ID to the security to let you out of the school.
Both of you head towards her card but you see something that freaks you out and suddenly you become very anxious. It may have been what looked like your mom's car and you remember that you're supposed to go home during offroll right now.
You take out your phone and text your mom and ask her
[[//Where are you? Can you come pick me up.//|come pick me up]] or [[//Hey, where are you right now. I'm still at school because...//|I'm not allowed to leave school yet]]Mom, can you come and pick me up from school. I'm done now.
(text-color: aqua)[Yes, I'll be there in 10 minutes.]
Okay.
[[go home]](text-color: aqua)[Where are you right now? Come home.]
I can't leave school yet.
(text-color: aqua)[Why not. You don't have a fourth period. Come home now.]
They won't let me leave yet for the first 2 weeks of school because we don't have an official way to tell them that we have offroll.
(text-color: aqua)[Okay, let me know when school is over so I can come get you.]
It's okay, I'll just walk home when school's over.
(text-color: aqua)[Okay. See you at home.]
[[end the text conversation and continue to go out with the girl]]You tell (text-color: red)[Red] that you can no longer go out with her. She looks at you with a sad face but says okay and leaves to her car by herself. You wait for your mom.
Your mom picks you up from school and you head home. After finishing all your homework, you look at the time and it's almost 10pm.
You [[head to bed peacefully]].(text-color: red)[Hey! You all good?]
Yeah! I'm ready to go :)
(text-color: red)[Okay cool, we're gonna stop by the library first because I need to go and get my book for AP Lit.]
Okay no problem, just happy to spend time with you.
You both get in the car and you sit in it for the first time. It smells familiar, not like something tangible but more of a feeling. You compare it to being held by a warm, weighted blanket and it's comforting.
She starts [[driving to the library]].We come to the library because she needs to pick up a book for her AP lit class
[[pick up the book and head back into the car]]Once you head to the libary, you wander around as she goes to find her book. You look at her through the cracks on the other side of the bookshelf and you can't help but smile. She looks at you confused but the only thing that comes to mind is how pretty she looks. You wonder if she even realizes how much you adore her but it doesn't bother you at all.
Once she checks out her book, you look at your phone and wonder if there's still time for the rest of whatever she has planned today or if you should just go home now.
[[go home]] or [[head to the park]]She takes you to the park and tells you that it's somewhere near her house. You start thinking about her life as she hasn't told you much. She lays down a blanket she got from her car so that you may both sit down on it.
She takes out her book that she just attained from the library and attempts to read it. You don't want to bother her but you can't help but stare at her, admiring her red hair and glistening eyes. She makes eye contact with you and in an angry tone, tells you that she cannot concentrate and puts the book down to make conversation with you.
You apologize and tell her she should keep reading and that you won't bother her for the rest of the time but she insists that she won't be able to focus anyways and wants to talk to you about whatevers on her mind.
You have a nice conversation under the sun and it's about time to wrap it up and go home. You ask her to drop you off 10 minutes after school officially ends to make it seem as if you walked back from school.
She says okay and takes you [[back home]].
Your heart is full.Once she drops you off home, you head to your room and lay face first onto the bed. Your face is red and all you can think about is how much better you feel ever since the night before.
The day ends and you [[head to bed with butterflies]].You wake up and go to school. It's a normal day and you're not looking forward to anything in particular.
You head to first period,
then second,
then lunch.
then immediately head home.
Something in you feels a bit weird as you're unsure what this feeling is. Once the night comes, [[you go to bed feeling empty]].You go to school excited everyday looking forward to more dates during fourth period.
[[meet up with the girl once more]]You ask about where she's taking you today and she tells you it's a surprise. You're excited but kind of worried you won't make it home on time.
[[go on mystery date]] or [[ask her if she can take you somewhere close]]She takes you onto the freeway to a small lake by a library. You've never been here before and she tells you that there's always a bunch of ducks here and it makes her super happy.
You both sit on a bench and she tells you to lay on her lap. You feel warm and safe, and you tell her about what happened a couple of nights ago.
As she drives you home, she takes your hand and holds it. You feel sick with love as she makes you feel at home so you smile uncontrollably and wonder how long this feeling will stay.
You go home and [[lay in bed with a face so red your mother thought you were ill]].She says alright it's no problem and drives you to a park nearby your house. You both get out of the car and sit down on a bench.
She tells you to rest your head on her lap and embarassed, you ask her if she's sure and she insists.
You talk for an hour and watch as the clouds fly by.
Once time has run out, she takes you home and you [[lay on your bed with your heart content]]Your thoughts run wild as the memory of her holding you replays in your head for the rest of the day. Nothing could distract you from feeling this way.
You go to sleep with your heart full, waiting for the next day to quickly come by so you can [[see her again]].you go to bed with your heart at a comfortable bpm
you can't wait for the next day to [[see her again]]The next day, fourth period comes fast and you rush to see (text-color: red)[Red] but something seems off in her body language and you can't figure out what it is. Still, you go up to her and both [[walk to her car]].You don't ask where she's taking you this time as you usually never asks and it's always a surprise. Although there is a small thought in your mind and you wonder if you should ask.
[[Ask her where you're both going]] or [[Keep quiet and enjoy the car ride]]She asks you where do you want to go? You tell her you want to go visit a park that's nearby and your friend said you should go see. She says okay and drives you there.
The car ride seems uncomfortably quiet but you ignore it as the park is getting closer. [[You step out of the car]]You both arrive at a park. She gets out of the car but you're already heading towards a bench to sit down on. She sits next to you but something makes you worry and this time, [[you ask her]].She looks down at the ground, unable to find the right words but you already know what is happening.
Tears start to slowly fill your eyes as she hugs you in an effort to comfort you. You slowly return back to normal as you catch your breath.
Once the conversation is over, you both head to the car for a quiet ride [[home]].You're unsure how to feel but it's a numbing feeling. When the night comes, [[you go to bed feeling empty]]You arrive at the park with a curious nature. You've never been in this neighborhood so you examine every part of the block. Red follows you from behind but something seems off. You don't question it but slowly you both [[make your way to the benches in the corner.]]
Something doesn't sit right and you're not sure what to do. She breaks the silence by quietly mumbling some words. You weren't exactly sure what she said but as tears filled your eyes, you already understood what they meant.
She hugged you in an effort to make you feel better. You slowly catch your running thoughts and you both [[make your way to the car.]]The car ride home was uncomfortable but in your head, you know things will be okay once you forget this.
Once the night comes, [[you go to bed feeling empty]] It's been almost 4 months since that incident happened. You've grown a bit, physically and mentally and you're now in a healthy spot.
To cope with your hurt feelings, you've been talking to (text-color: magenta)[Pink], (text-color: blue)[Blue's girlfriend]. She's grown closer to you and is most likely around the same closeness level as (text-color: orange)[Orange] and (text-color: blue)[Blue]. There hasn't been any drama yet this school year and you're kind of glad as you're really tired.
Many school events happened and you've had a lot of fun. Things aren't awkward between you and (text-color: red)[Red] as you're still close friends and you've been talking to her almost every day either way.
One day, you recieve an interesting text from (text-color: magenta)[Pink]...
[[You read the texts]](text-color: magenta)[Hey? Can I tell you something?]
Yeah what's up.
(text-color: magenta)[Did you know that when me and Blue started dating, Blue and Green used to talk shit about you? I just wanted to let you know.]
Oh, okay. Thanks for telling me I appreciate it.
[[You turn off your phone]]You aren't sure what to do with this information.
(text-color: blue)[Blue] was your friend ever since freshman year, and although things were sometimes rocky, she's always been there for you.
You've just started to get close to (text-color: magenta)[Pink] but she's always been so honest with you, you want to trust her so badly.
Ultimately, you know that whoever you side with will change your relationship with the other. Before this big decision, you tell (text-color: orange)[Orange] about your dilemma, the one you can always trust.
You pick up your phone once more and [[text her]].I NEED HELP.
(text-color: orange)[WHAT'S WRONG???]
(text-color: magenta)[Pink] told me that (text-color: blue)[Blue] and (text-color: green)[Green] used to talk shit about me :(( like over the summer.
(text-color: orange)[Oh?? That's mean :( I'm sorry.]
Yeah, but like, I don't know who to trust now??
(text-color: orange)[Who are you leaning towards trusting right now?]
[[I'm thinking about Blue]] or [[I'm thinking about Pink]]
You finish the conversation with (text-color: orange)[Orange] and head to bed with your mind still confused but you're sure you made the right decision.
Hoping that your trust in your old friend over her girlfriend is right move, you close your eyes and [[wait for tomorrow to come]].You finish the conversation with (text-color: orange)[Orange] and head to bed with your mind still confused but you're sure you made the right decision.
You think to yourself, whatever happens will happen. Closing your eyes, you fall asleep and soon enough [[tomorrow comes]].Second period quickly comes and you immediately turn to talk to (text-color: purple)[Purple]. You tell her about the recent gossip and ask her for her opinion. You told her that you chose to side with (text-color: magenta)[Pink].
She tells you that she agrees with you and that if you ever need help to just let her know and she'll be with you ASAP. You keep that in mind as you [[go to lunch]]. Lunch is a bit awkward as you're sitting with this information inside you that no one else is aware of. Or at least, they're not aware that YOU know.
You act as if everything is normal but you ask if you could talk to (text-color: blue)[Blue] and (text-color: green)[Green] during offroll.
They said sure. Once the lunch bell rings, you wave goodbye once more and [[you await for offroll to come]].Once third period ends, you make your way to the lunch tables and sit while you wait for (text-color: blue)[Blue] and (text-color: green)[Green] to come.
It's awkward at first but you rip off the band-aid and tell them what (text-color: magenta)[Pink] [[told you]].
Second period quickly comes and you immediately turn to talk to (text-color: purple)[Purple]. You tell her about the recent gossip and ask her for her opinion. You told her that you chose to side with (text-color: blue)[Blue].
She tells you that she's kind of iffy on the situation as she doesn't really trust (text-color: blue)[Blue] due to some weird situation in the past years.
Now you're unsure about the situation but you trust your instincts on your decision and your mind remains unchanged.
The lunch bell comes and you [[head to lunch]].Lunch is the same as it has aways been. You greet (text-color: green)[Green] and (text-color: blue)[Blue] and they greet you back. You don't mention about the news you recieved last night as you don't really think it matters as it was old news and it's no longer relevant now.
You're very happy and content with your friendship with both of them and would hate for some small little drama to get in the way.
Once the lunch bell ends, you get up and start to walk to class. (text-color: blue)[Blue] invites you to come hang out at her house during offroll and asks if you want to take a nap with her and you politely accept.
Things are going well in your life despite the rocky beginning at the start of the year. Your friendship with (text-color: blue)[Blue], (text-color: orange)[Orange], (text-color: green)[Green], and (text-color: purple)[Purple] continue strong for the rest of your highschool years but (text-color: magenta)[Pink] starts to drift away as your communication with her starts to stop.
[[???]]Many months pass after this whole incident and you look pretty happy having just (text-color: orange)[Orange] and (text-color: purple)[Purple] in your life.
Surprisingly, you've still been talking to (text-color: red)[Red] on the downlow while everything's been happening. She's given you some input and although it wasn't majorly impactful, she's always been caring for you.
At some point in these months, you began to start feeling butterflies again. Unsure, you try to supress them but the more you talk to her, they start to reappear. You don't want to go down the same path you did at the beginning of the year so you try to ignore it all but they just keep coming.
You wonder what will happen in the next couple months but you just trust and tell yourself that if anything happens, then it is what it is.Did you guys actually say that?
(text-color: blue)[That was a long time ago, we don't think about you like that anymore..]
(text-color: green)[And we've had so much fun over the past few months :(]
But... you guys still thought about me like that?
(text-color: blue)[It was old thoughts :(]
... Okay...Thank you guys for admitting to it though.
[[you leave to call your mom so she can take you home]]Your mind's a mess as you think about what happened today.
Throughout the next couple weeks, you stop talking to (text-color: blue)[Blue] and (text-color: green)[Green]. You decide that they aren't worth your friendship and instead, you continue to grow closer to (text-color: magenta)[Pink].
The next day at school, during class the teacher recieves a call from the office. They tell you that it's for you and that you need to head to the counselor's office.
Confused, you stood up and left. What you didn't know was why (text-color: blue)[Blue] called you but [[entering her counselor's room gave you chills]].(text-color: blue)[Why did you stop talking to me.]
I don't know.. I just thought we should take a little break..
(text-color: blue)[Do you know how hurt I was. You cut me off with no warning and it made me feel really bad.]
Well.. I felt really bad after hearing that you and (text-color: green)[Green] used to talk shit about me, and I didn't want to be friends with someone like that.
(text-color: blue)[But it was old, I didn't think about you like that anymore.]
But it still affected me... it made me feel really bad..
The conversation goes on for about an hour and it feels like she's become the victim in the situation that she created.
Your immediate thoughts are:
(text-color: yellow)[She's the one who made me feel bad so why am I the one who has to apologize.]
(text-color: yellow)[I got dragged to the counselors office for this? And the counselor isn't even saying anything. I'm so sad.]
(text-color: yellow)[Was this not the right choice?]
Your eyes are filled with tears and [[you just wanted to go home.]]Leaving the counselors office, the third period has rung and you realized this conversation took up your whole class period. You immediately walk home with your bags slouched over your shoulder.
Once you arrive, you go upstairs to your room and lay there quietly. The day could not end any quicker.
[[You sleep.]]Few days pass and you hang out with (text-color: orange)[Orange] and (text-color: purple)[Purple] now since they're the only ones you can trust after this whole situation. One day, you get an interesting text from (text-color: orange)[Orange]. You don't really pay attention to it but there's one block of text that catches your eye.
You realize that it doesn't really look like (text-color: orange)[Orange's] typing style and you're confused about it.
Your text messages with (text-color: orange)[Orange] look like:
(text-color: orange)[Where are youuuu]
(text-color: orange)[I'm aloneeee]
I'm omw!!
(text-color: orange)[Okayy!]
Are we hanging out at lunch today? Also did anything come up
(text-color: orange)[Just talk to her, she told me that if people have a problem with her, especially her friends, she'd want them to talk to her face to face instead of her thinking everything is fine when in reality it's not.]
[[Oh.. okay, I'll see.]]Later during the day, (text-color: green)[Green] texts you:
(text-color: green)[Hey, we need to talk. Meet me at the lunch tables during offroll?]
Okay, I'll be there in a few minutes.
(text-color: green)[Kk.]
Once third period ends, you start to [[head over to the lunch tables]].
(text-color: green)[Hey so, I just wanted to talk to you about our friendship.]
What about it?
(text-color: green)[Why haven't you been hanging out with us lately? It makes me really sad that you stopped.]
Oh, I still talk to you though over text? And we hang out during offroll sometimes, so I thought if I hung out with (text-color: magenta)[Pink], it would be a balance.
(text-color: green)[I don't know... you've just been avoiding us lately and I thought that maybe you didn't care about us anymore. I really missed you :(]
I'm sorry, I didn't mean to make you feel like that.
(text-color: green)[I'm sorry about what I said in the summer too, it was old stuff and it's just not how I think about you anymore. We had so much fun during lunch and at school events, I didn't want you to leave anymore.]
Suddenly, (text-color: orange)[Orange] appears from behind you guys and ask what are you guys doing.
Shocked, you just tell her that you two were talking but in your head, you knew she set this whole talk up. It puts you at comfort knowing that (text-color: orange)[Orange] is here with you and it breaks tension in the atmosphere.
Once school is finally over, you tell them you must leave to go home so you wave goodbye and [[start to go]].Your life is a little bit better now that you've gotten closure between the two of your friends. (text-color: Blue)[Blue] broke up with (text-color: magenta)[Pink] and has gotten a new girlfriend. While you still talk to the both of them, your relationship with (text-color: blue)[Blue] has slowly started to disappear as you both no longer talk.
You've been trying to spend more time with (text-color: green)[Green] and (text-color: orange)[Orange] as you're trying to shift the weights in the time you spend with all your friends.
At some point, your friendship with (text-color: green)[Green] starts to fade and (text-color: purple)[Purple] starts to become more close with you and (text-color: orange)[Orange]. You've left your old lunch group and although you were grateful to have them, you've decided that a small group is all you really need to be happy.
Things are looking decently well in your life. You seem to have everything together and although you've maybe lost a few good friends, you try and ignore that and focus on what you have.
[[???]]