warning. before beginning take into consideration that this game is composed of scenes that may be disturbing and mild concepts of death and depression.
[[Continue->Passage 1A]]
there are low mumblings...but i can't really understand
opening my eyes i can see a man and a woman, whispering in the corner.
now that they see me awake they jump with relief it seems.
a tall slender man in a lab coat explained how i might experience certain deficits from what happened.
... i dont even know what happened.
the man and woman told me that she was gone.
[[who?->Passage C1]]
[[i //see//...->Passage C2]]$#%&% in
^$&^(&^% ( sister *(*#@$ #^$:} ^&&^$^%
%^& damage &($#%&
%^& we&)978 are [[going->Passage D2]] [[^&$-> Passage D1]] & now.
my ears are ringing too loudly."we're %(*&(E you &**)&^ ^$% $&%%$%& ^*^% .Its *(^& ^(&^ to )*&%*&
[[alright.->Passage D3]]"
[["we love you"->Passage D4]]
what the heck are they saying...we are on our way...[[//somewhere.//->Passage E]]they kept crying. i don't understand too much of what was happening. who they are and why i feel[[ sad.->Passage E2]] I feel loved by them. they took me and we[[ left the hospital.->Passage E]]they grab my hands and hold them tight. they say that there was a lot of damage to my head. there might be defecits. everythings dull. grey. gone.
the woman said "come on, lets get you[[ **home**->Passage E2]]"we're in the house now.
i can't see any color. at the hospital i thought it would be temporary, but i guess this is one of the deficits.
in the house there's what they told me was [[my room->Room]], [[the kitchen-> Kitchen]], the [[living room->LR]], the[[ backyard ->BY]].
it all seems so....grey.
(if:$room is true) [[[there is a door down the hall -> Tonya's room]], they didn't tell me about this one. the door has painted flowers on it and polaroids with dates.]
(if: $Red is true and $Orange is true and $Yellow is true and $Green is true and $Blue is true and $Purple is true) [[*i see now*-> Red]]
home? this is it huh? so they are my parents... a pretty strong guess.
they're sad cause she is gone and they try to emphethise with my pain, but my pain is elsewhere. i can't even begin to understand how i feel.
i feel [[ grey ->Passage E]].
the bed is a mess. since it doesn't bother me, i'm assuming i have a messy personality. eh.
there's a lot of[[ hand drawn cards->Drawn Cards]] on the dressor and it looks like there's a[[ ball->Ball]] in the corner.there are clothes everywhere.
why is there so much [[ripped paper-> Paper]]?
[[***->Passage E]]
{(set: $room to true)
}its a nice place. light shines through making it the whitest in the house and brightness fills the room but reflects loudly off the [[fridge->report card]].
a [[large tv->News]] is mounted on the wall. this room seems familiar and safe.
there are many [[portraits -> Pictures]] on the fireplace molding. [[flowers->Flowers]] are intruding on almost every foot of the left wall.
[[*** ->Passage E]]theres a pool in the back yard with a small lawn patch.[[ pool toys->Pool Toys]].
a mid-sized dog dashed out from behind some shrub to greet me that vigorously wags its tail. it[[ demands attention-> dog]].
a shiftmake volleyball net mounted on the right edge of the yard looked [[worn and tattered-> Volleyball Net]], but i cant tell if the grass is healthy or not. it looks like it may be dying but on a grayscale yet i see slight hints of green, its hard to conclude.
[[ the door->Passage E]] to the backyard was aged with chipped paint.they're for me.
birthday, christmas, birthday, birthday, graduation.
their all from "tonya"
before i even knew was happening water dripped ontothe paper.
im crying. and the (color:blue)[blue] fromthe drawn cards blended with my tears, like water color.
blue huh?
{
(set: $Blue to true)
}
[[***->Room]]a volleyball. i guess i play, huh. oh right. i like volleyball, but i was never as good as... i was never that good.
i was never as good as she was. her name is scribbled on the ball too. the green marker smudged and made it hard to read.
I can see (color:green)[green] now... an ugly green
{
(set: $Green to true)
}
[[***->Room]]trying to fit these pieces together is kinda fun.
the C goes under the D+.
oh its a report card and i dont like how i feel looking at this.
i was jealous of her.
[[***->Room]]last week a five car pileup blocked the freeway and dammaged the highway divider. authorities say the crash left three dead and six critically injur- //blink//
turning around i could see my mom with the remote in her hand.
"you want pancakes?"
she asks
of course. she loved pancakes didn't she.
[[***->LR]]thats me in a cap and gown.
portraits of a tall girl holding a volleyball to her hip.
and a family portrait?
she was way taller than me, haha! always made fun of my height too.
[[***->LR]]the flowers have tags on them. notes and cards mingled with the dying stems and held on tight to the bundle of flora.
looks depressing.
[[***->LR]]water guns, what fun.
the water reflected the pools dark interior with the rays of the sun.
fun... i remember having fun with her.
i laughed a lot here.
huh...i didnt notice the (color: orange)[orange] poppies in the grass before.
{
(set: $Orange to true)
}
[[***->BY]]the dog was happy to see me. i rubbed its cheeks and neck.
the collar jangled with it's name tag that said... cooper?
good dog! i remember you ya' little shit. good boy.
[[***->BY]]the sun shines heavily on my skin. its warm. walking passed the net, i let my fingers swing on the strings and i feel happy.
the dog sonters to the opposing side of the net and sits. with sadness, the dog burries its chin into the dirt.
yellow. (color:yellow)[yellow]. I can see her wearing a yellow shirt across from me.
we used to play here in the hot sun.
{
(set: $Yellow to true)
}
[[***->BY]]looking at the grade sheet pinned up on the fridge makes me mad.
why?
the name on the report reads "tonya".
-english
-math
-history
every subject is either correlated with an "a" or an "a+"
left of the fridge something (color: red)[red] catches my eye.
{
(set: $Red to true)
}
[[wait, aha, red. ->Passage E]]
Grey.
[[Red-> Red]]
[[Orange-> Orange]]
[[Yellow->Yellow]]
[[Green->Green]]
[[Blue->Blue]]
[[Purple->Purple]](color:red)[she was way smarter than me and always getting the better grades, which made me feel anger towards her.
i hope she know that (link: "I was just jealous")[(set: $foo to true)(go-to: "Yellow")] of how smart she was. i was proud, too. she was mom's favorite.
she was [[so smart->Yellow]].](color:orange)[the orange flowers by the pool remind me of spring and summer. i would always get in trouble for playing to rough in the pool, but (link: "i knew she was tough enough. ")[(set: $foo to true)(go-to: " Green")]
if anything [[she always hit me harder->Green]] with the watergun. but she'd always regret that when i grabbed the watergun from her.
i'm gonna miss having someone to fight with...](color:yellow)[the yellow and white volleyball was faded and had torn seems. the excersize was always good but i played volleyball with her because she wanted to get better.
it made be feel good to do something for her. what was she going to do, play with the dog?
well, that's what [[i have to do now-> Orange]].
(link: "It was a car crash.")[(set: $foo to true)(go-to: "Orange")]](color:green)[she brought ilfe to our house. if there's one thing to remember, it's that she would forgive me.
she was always[[ so forgiving ->Blue]], and wise for her age.
i don't know how she ended up smarter than me.
things happen. bad things sometimes,(link: "but our memories were good.")[(set: $foo to true)(go-to: "Blue")] ](color:blue)[i was sad to see that i didn't take better care of those cards. she knew blue was my favorite color and that's why she used it on every one.
hers was purple. those two colors work together pretty well, don't they.
[[i wish->Purple]] i was nicer to her in those moments.](color:purple)[purple pancakes. they were stupid easy to make. i was always annoyed by how much food coloring mom put in each pancake batch.
but she wanted them to be extra vibrant for you.
weirdo... who like purple pancakes?
(if: $foo is true)[[[it's me who's weird->Ending 2]]]\
(else:)[[[it's you->Ending 1]]]]
i remember everything, our childhood, the fights we had, your crappy cards that i couldn't help but save.
you helped me remember all along, you guided me didn't you.
you're watching over me right now, helping me piece together clues.
thank *you* for helping me, I didn't even know it was *you* this whole time.
i miss *you* Tonya.
i love you.
wWe were in the car, and i shouldn't have continued the argument. i was just so mad and it was all my fault. she would still be here if it wasn't for me.
i should have never said those things. i should have appreciated all the things she did for me.
i still have her cards. i should have told her she could become a professional card maker. i should've told her i loved her, but i thought i was too cool for that.
i'll tell her when we meet again. {
(set: $Red to false)
(set: $Orange to false)
(set: $Yellow to false)
(set: $Green to false)
(set: $Blue to false)
(set: $Purple to false)
(set: $foo to true)
(set: $room to false)
}
i can see her in the bed with my mind, legs crossed and earbuds in. as i stare into the room the memory becomes clearer than before and color starts to flood the room.
(color:purple)[happy](color: grey)[ pinks ](color:purple) [and purples.]
[[i should leave->Passage E]], i doubt they would want me snooping around in this room.
{(set: $Purple to true)
}there's a ringing in my ears.
the air seems smoky and screams are echoeing in and out of my mind.
its dark.
looking out the window to my right i can see a woman crying over someone, their body seems limp.
whats happened
there is a bright light flashing on the door. on and off.
it's red
[[ i think...->Passage B]]