The following narrative includes refrences to suicide, drugs, self harm, depression and uses profanity; it includes audio files; it could be jarring for some players and everyone should consider their own personal feelings before deciding to play. It is recommened you play the game with headphones. Do you understand all of the above, and want to continue to the game? (link: "I understand")[ [[Play]] ] <hr> To make sure your audio is working, and the volume is comfortable use the following link: [[Audio Test]]

[<audio src="alarm_clock.mp3" autoplay>] { (live: 2s)[ (stop:) (transition: "dissolve")[The piercing alarm screams. ] ] } { (live: 4s)[ (stop:) (transition: "dissolve")[Lexi start to wake up.] ] } { (live: 6s)[ (stop:) (transition: "dissolve") ["Damn"] ] } { (live: 8s)[ (stop:) (transition: "dissolve")[She slaps at her alarm clock] ] } { (live: 10s)[ (stop:) (transition: "dissolve") ["Just SHUT UP would you!"] ] }{ (live: 11.3s)[ (stop:) [<audio src="pills.mp3" autoplay>]] } { (live: 12s)[ (stop:) (transition: "dissolve")[She hits it one more time, knocking it off her bedside table, taking a bottle of small white pills with it] ] } { (live: 16s)[ (stop:) (transition: "dissolve")[(text-color: red)[The bottle bursts open.] The cap wasn't on tight.] ] } { (live: 20s)[ (stop:) (transition: "dissolve")["Shit, SHIT NO!" Lexi exclaims as each of the remaining pills (text-color: red)[fall] into the radiator vent in the floor] ] } {(live:21s)[ (stop:) <audio src="pills_fall.mp3" autoplay>] } { (live:24s)[ (stop:) (transition: "dissolve")[(link: "Continue")[(goto: "Morning One")]]] }

(if: $MorningOneVisited is 0)[(set: $MorningOneVisited to 1) {"Damn it, my appointment isn't until next week"} {(live: 3s)[ (stop:) (transition: "dissolve")[Lexi hops out of bed, her class starts soon. She is going to explore all her options before going to class.]]} <hr> {(live: 8.5s)[ (stop:)[["I need another perscription, I'll call doctor Conners"]]]} {(live: 8.8s)[ (stop:) [[Open vent]]]} ](else:)[ {She is going to explore all her options before going to class.} <hr> {[[Open vent]]} {[["I need another perscription, I'll call doctor Conners"]]} {(if: $EopenVent is 1 and $Ecall is 1)[ [["I'm just going to class, I'll deal with this later"]]]}]

(if: $PryitopenVisted is 0)[(set: $PryitopenVisted to 1)Lexi grabs the vent and pulls {<audio src="slice.mp3" autoplay>} { (live: 2s)[ (stop:) (transition: "dissolve")["OW! Shit."] ] } { (live: 3.5s)[ (stop:) (transition: "dissolve")[(text-color: red)[Lexi cut herself on the metal vent]]] } { (live:7.5s)[ (stop:) (transition: "dissolve")["I have to get this thing open"]] } <hr> { (live:9s)[ (stop:) (transition: "dissolve")[[Search Drawer]]] } { (live:9.3s)[ (stop:) (transition: "dissolve")[(link: "Give up")[(goto: "Morning One")]]] }] (else:)[ (text-color: red)[Lexi cut herself on the metal vent] <hr> [[Search Drawer]] (link: "Give up")[(goto: "Morning One")] ]

Controlling Line Spacing Here is some poetry: stanza one line one stanza one line two stanza one line three stanza one line four stanza two line one stanza two line two stanza two line three stanza two line four stanza three line one stanza three line two stanza three line three stanza three line four also <hr> (if: $ppassageNameVisted is 0)[(set: $ppassageNameVisted to 1)Hello stranger.](else:)[Welcome back!] Variables for player choice $Jen true or false $PJ true or false $Sleep tru or false

Dressed, and packed, Lexi leaves for the day <hr> (link: "Continue")[(goto: "leaves for the day")] {(live: 1s) [(stop:) <audio src="leaving.mp3" autoplay>]}

{(set: $Ecall to 1) <audio src= "heart_beat.mp3" autoplay>} {(live: 2s)[ (stop:) (transition: "dissolve")[Lexi picks up the phone...]]} {(live: 4s)[ (stop:) (transition: "dissolve")[She remembers all the times her parents made these calls...]]} {(live: 7s)[ (stop:) (transition: "dissolve")[The phone begins to ring]]} {(live: 8s)[ (stop:) [<audio src= "dial.mp3" autoplay>]]} { (live: 26s)[ (stop:) (transition: "dissolve")[Lexi: "Hi.. Dr. Conners, it's Lexi"]] } { (live: 27s)[ (stop:) (link: "Continue")[ Conners: "Oh, hi Lexi, how are you doing today?" (link: "Continue")[ Lexi: "Well... not the best" (link: "Continue")[ Conners: "Oh? And why is that?" (link: "Continue")[ Lexi: (text-color: red)[*a little frantic now*] "I was tired yesterday and my alarm was going off... and I- I was just kinda hitting at it and it fell and knocked over my pill bottle with it- it- the bottle opened and the few I have left fell into the vent.. I tried to get it open, I couldn't" (link: "Continue")[ Conners: "Ohh....Lexi I'm sorry-" (link: "(text-color: red)[Cut him off]")[ Lexi: "I only need a few more, just to make it to my appointment." *slightly more aggravated now* (link: "Continue")[ Conners: "Look Lexi, given your.. history, and in considering that our appointment is soon, Im- I'm (text-color: red)[not] going to write you anything until then..." (link: "(text-color: red)[Protest]")[ Lexi: "I'm not fucking lying to you Conners! It was an accident okay, I just need a few days worth" (link: "Continue")[ Conners: "Lexi. No. I'm sorry but it's not going to happen. Period." (link: "Give up")[(goto: "Morning One")] ]]]]]]]]]]}

I've gotta get this thing open <hr> [[Pry it open]] (link: "Nevermind")[(goto: "Morning One")]

(if: $SearchDrawerVisted is 0)[(set: $SearchDrawerVisted to 1) {(link: "Screwdriver")[(text-color: red)+(text-style: "strike")[The screws are stripped] {[[Pocket Knife]]} ]} ] (else:)[ (text-style: "strike")[The screws are stripped] (text-style: "strike")["I don't need that"] (link: "Give up")[(goto: "Morning One")]]

[<audio src="heart_beat.mp3" autoplay>] (Text-color: red)+(text-style: "rumble")[There's a familar flick as the blade opens] { (live: 2s)[ (stop:) (Text-color: red)+(text-style: "shudder")[Why did I even grab this it can't help.]]} { (live: 4s)[ (stop:) (Text-color: red)+(text-style: "blur")[It can't help... with the vent]] } { (live: 4.3s)[ (stop:) (Text-color: red)+(text-style: "blur")[help]] } { (live: 4.4s)[ (stop:) (Text-color: red)+(text-style: "blur")[help]] } { (live: 4.5s)[ (stop:) (Text-color: red)+(text-style: "blur")[help]] } { (live: 4.6s)[ (stop:) (Text-color: red)+(text-style: "blur")[help]] } { (live: 6s)[ (stop:) [[Breathe]]] }

{(set: $EopenVent to 1) [<audio src="breathe.mp3" autoplay>] Breath...} Breath... (live: 8s)[ (stop:) [(link: "Put it away")[(goto: "Morning One")]]]

Lexi went to her classes {(live: 2s)[ (stop:) (transition: "dissolve")[It was a rather uneventful day]] } <hr> {(live: 4s)[ (stop:) [[Return Home]]] }

[<audio src="return.mp3" autoplay>] { (live: 3s)[ (stop:) (transition: "dissolve")[Lexi returns home, she knows whats going to happen without her medication but there's nothing she can do.]] } { (live: 7s)[ (stop:) (transition: "dissolve")[Looking at the (text-color: red)[vent] she sighs...] [<audio src= "breathe.mp3" autoplay>]] } { (live: 11s)[ (stop:) (link: "Breathe")[ (transition: "dissolve")[Laying down in bed, the cool air from the window seeping in...]] (link: "Breathe")[ (transition: "dissolve")[Lexi looks up at the stars...]] (link: "Breathe")[ (transition: "dissolve")[She thinks about the beauty of the vantablack night sky...]] ] } { (live: 25s)[ (stop:) (transition: "dissolve")[Lexi drifts off to sleep, conciously aware of what awaits her (text-color: red)[tomorrow]]] } <hr> { (live: 28s)[ (stop:) (link: "Continue")[(goto: "Morning Two")] ] }

[<audio src="alarm_clock.mp3" autoplay>] { (live: 2s)[ (stop:) (transition: "dissolve")[The piercing alarm screams. ] ] } { (live: 6s)[ (stop:) (transition: "dissolve")[Lexi start to wake up.] ] } { (live: 9s)[ (stop:) (transition: "dissolve")[She rolls back and forth, slowly] ] } { (live: 12s)[ (stop:) (link:"Wake Up")["not yet"]] } { (live: 15s)[ (stop:) (link:"Wake Up")["no"]] } { (live: 21s)[ (stop:) [[Sleep in...]]] }

Lexi sleeps in past her alarm { (live: 6s)[ (stop:) (transition: "dissolve")[She slips back into a deeper sleep]] } { (live: 10s)[ (stop:) [<audio src="heart_beat.mp3" autoplay>] (Text-color: red)+(text-style: "rumble")[Suddenly from the abyss...] ]} { (live: 11.5s)[ (stop:) (Text-color: red)+(text-style: "shudder")[something grabs Lexi, she's unable to see or move] ]} { (live: 13.5s)[ (stop:) (Text-color: red)+(text-style: "rumble")[her whole body is shaking and she can't control it, she tries to scream but nothing comes out] ]} { (live: 17s)[ (stop:) (goto: "RM Wake Up") ]}

(text-color: red)[(live: 1.5s)[(stop:)(link:"Fight it")[(text-style:"blink")[Lexi's eyes flicker open slightly]]]] {(live: 10s)[ (stop:) (link: "Continue")[(goto: "RM Intro")]]}

Lexi awakes to Jen shaking her lightly, to her kind eyes and her smile {(live: 2s)[(stop:)Jen: "Hey you, you've gotta get up your class already started"]} (live: 5s)[(stop:)[ [[Continue]] ]<b| (mouseover-replace: ?b)[(link: "(text-color:red)[Yell at her!]")[Lexi: WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING! (link: "Continue")[Jen: "It's okay girly just breathe, you were mumbling and moving a lot" (link: "Continue")[Lexi: "Shit.. sorry" (link: "Continue")[Jen: "Hey is everything alright with you?" (link: "Continue")[Lexi: [[Tell Her]] | [[Hide the truth]] ]]]]]]]

(set: $Jen to true) {(live: 2s)[ (stop:) (transition: "dissolve")[ Lexi: "Jen I. . .my meds, I dropped them and they fell into that stupid vent by the window I couldn't get them out."]]} {(live: 6s)[ (stop:) (transition: "dissolve")[ Jen: "oh damn, thanks for telling me though, if you need anything please tell me okay?"]]} {(live: 10s)[ (stop:) (transition: "dissolve")[ Lexi: "thanks..."]]} {(live: 13s)[ (stop:) [[Get Dressed]]]}

{(set: $Jen to false) (transition: "dissolve")[ Jen can sense that something is wrong, she knows Lexi isn't telling her everything but decides to leave it for now.]} [[Get Dressed]]

How did you manage this, this passage is not for getting to, go back to the dialogue [[RM Intro]]

{(transition:"dissolve")[Pulling herself out of bed Lexi reaches for the closet door...]} {(live:2s)[(stop:)(transition: "dissolve")[as soon as the closet door swings open she feels an overwhelming sense of (text-color: red)[dread]]]} {<hr> (live:4s)[(stop:)[[Casual Outfit]] | [[Pajamas]]]}

(set: $PJ to false) {(live: 2s)[ (stop:) (transition: "dissolve")["Well I guess I'm not gonna be comfortable either way I may as well try to look good"]]} {(live: 4s)[ (stop:) [[Go to class]]]}

{(set: $PJ to true) (live: 2s)[ (stop:) (transition: "dissolve")["If I am gonna look like shit either way I may as well be comfortable.."]]} {(live: 4s)[ (stop:) [[Go to class]]]}

(if: $PJ is true)["Nice outfit, nothing wrong with a PJ day when you need one" Jen exclaimed from across the kitchen. Lexi tries to give her a little smile but she isn't sure if she succeeded..] (else:)["Hey look at you, she said 'just because I'm late doesn't mean im gonna look a mess,' Nice!, you've got this" Jen exclaimed excitedly from across the tiny kitchen. Lexi tried to give her a little smile, she isn't sure if she really did though.. right before leaving, she turns back to Jen and says, "I just need you to know that I really do love you, thank you." Jen smiles.] {(link: "Continue")[(goto: "Leave2")]}

Lexi went to her classes, {(if: $PJ is true)[ someone commented on her PJ's, they asked if she was sick, that didn't help.] (else:)[someone told her she looked nice, she thought that helped a little.]} {(live: 3s)[ (stop:) (transition: "dissolve")[Getting through today was harder, Lexi scratches lightly at the cut on her finger from the other morning.]] } <hr> {(live: 8s)[ (stop:) (link: "Return Home")[(goto: "Return2")]] }

[<audio src="return.mp3" autoplay>] { (live: 3s)[ (stop:) (transition: "dissolve")[Lexi returns home, its only the second day, but it feels like its been forever...]] } { (live: 7s)[ (stop:) (transition: "dissolve")[Looking at the (text-color: red)[vent] she sighs again...] [<audio src= "breathe.mp3" autoplay>]] } { (live: 11s)[ (stop:) (link: "Breathe")[ (transition: "dissolve")[She lays down in bed, the cool air from the window seeps in...]] (link: "Breathe")[ (transition: "dissolve")[Lexi looks out, off into the distance...]] (link: "Breathe")[ (transition: "dissolve")[She finds a sort of peace in watching the leaves blow helplessly under the orange glow of the streetlights.]] ] } { (live: 25s)[ (stop:) (transition: "dissolve")[Lexi barely sleeps, she dreads the thought of another day like this.]] } <hr> { (live: 28s)[ (stop:) (if: $Jen is false)[ (link: "Continue")[(goto: "Morning Three")]] (else:)[ (link: "Continue")[(goto: "Morning 3[2]")]] ] }

[<audio src="alarm_clock.mp3" autoplay>] Jen had to leave early this morning, she said goodbye earlier. { (live: 4s)[ (stop:) (transition: "dissolve")[The piercing alarm screams. ] ] } { (live: 8s)[ (stop:) (transition: "dissolve")[Lexi doesn't budge] ] } { (live: 11s)[ (stop:) (transition: "dissolve")[She faintly hears the alarm] ] } { (live: 14s)[ (stop:) (link:"Wake Up")["fuck off"]] } { (live: 17s)[ (stop:) (link:"Wake Up")["no"]] } { (live: 19s)[ (stop:) (link:"Wake Up")["I'm not going in today"]] } { (live: 20.5s)[ (stop:) [ [[Wake Up!]] | [[Take the extra rest]] ]] }

[<audio src="alarm_clock.mp3" autoplay>] Jen was supposed to leave early this morning, she stayed just in case Lexi needed help waking up. { (live: 4s)[ (stop:) (transition: "dissolve")[The piercing alarm screams.] ] } { (live: 8s)[ (stop:) (transition: "dissolve")[Lexi doesn't budge] ] } { (live: 11s)[ (stop:) (transition: "dissolve")[She faintly hears the alarm] ] } { (live: 14s)[ (stop:) (link:"Wake Up")["fuck off"]] } { (live: 17s)[ (stop:) (link:"Wake Up")["no"]] } { (live: 19s)[ (stop:) (link:"Wake Up")["I. Need. Sleep."]] } { (live: 23s)[ (stop:) Lexi feels someone shaking her. . .its Jen.] } { (live: 29s)[ (stop:) (goto: "Wake Up!")]}

(set: $sleep to false) {Groggily Lexi wakes up, (if: $Jen is true)[she thanks Jen for getting her up.] (else:) [realizing she's almost late.]} {She's still in her (if: $PJ is true)[pajamas](else:)[day clothes] from yesterday.} <hr> {(link: "Continue")[(goto: "FinDay1")]}

{(set: $sleep to true) Lexi sleeps in longer than she should have, she's late.} {(live:3s)[ (stop:) (transition: "dissolve")[Glancing over at her alarm clock, she reads the time. "Damn it, whatever."]]} <hr>{ (live: 5s)[ (stop:) (link: "Continue")[(goto: "FinDay1")]]}

{<audio src="leaving.mp3" autoplay>} {Lexi Leaves} { (live:4s)[ (stop:) (link: "Continue")[ (goto: "Fin2")]] }

[<audio src=heart_beat.mp3 autoplay loop>] This should not be loud, however you should be able to clearly distinguish the heartbeat sound. [[Introduction]]

{<audio src="car_interior.mp3" autoplay loop>} {Lexi drives down the road} <hr> { (live: 3s)[ (stop:) (link: "Continue")[ She thinks about going to class, about having another day like this... (link: "Continue")[ She begins to cry. She thinks to herself, "why are you crying like an idiot, nothing has even happened yet" (link: "Continue")[ "'yet'" Lexi knows this isn't going to end well... (link: "Breathe")[ She can't breathe, her heart is pounding. {<audio src="heart_beat.mp3" autoplay loop>} (link: "Continue")[ She can barely remember how long its been, it feels like years. A driver cuts in front of her. (link: "(text-color: red)[Cut him off]")[ "I only needed a few more, why wouldn't he listen" she mutters to herself while she swerves back in front of the driver. {<audio src="dial.mp3" autoplay loop>} (link: "Continue")[ She glances back at the guy she cut off, she almost feels a little better taking out her pain on someone else... {<audio src="pills.mp3" autoplay loop>} (link: "(text-color: red)[Relieve pain]")[ Lexi slams her foot down on the gas, she tightens her grip on the steering wheel, feeling a slight sting as she puts pressue on her cut finger. {<audio src="alarm_clock.mp3" autoplay loop>} (link: "Continue")[ Swerving through traffic, around turns she feels good... {<audio src="alarm_clock.mp3" autoplay loop>} (link: "Continue")[ She feels control...strength.. {<audio src="pills_fall.mp3" autoplay loop>} (link: "Continue")[ For the first time in days she feels like she is completely in control of everything around her, she feels free. {<audio src="slice.mp3" autoplay loop>} (link: "Breathe")[ Lexi takes a deep breath and pushes harder... her stupid little car bouncing off the red line, she won't slow down. (link: "Continue")[ She can barely remember how long its been, it feels like years. (link: "(text-color: red)[Cut him off]")[ She finally feels free... (link: "Continue")[ She closes her eyes (link: "Breathe")[(goto: "Final")] ]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]}

{<audio src="splash.mp3" autoplay>} {<audio src="heart_beat_uw.mp3" autoplay loop>} {(live: 3s)[ (stop:) (link: "Continue")[ Lexi's car hurdles off the cliffside... (link: "Continue")[ Splashing down in the water below, it begins to fill with the cold ocean water (link: "Continue")[ Lexi feels the water level rise, her (if: $PJ is true)[pajamas](else:)[same old clothes] become heavy, as she is submerged. (link: "Continue")[ She thinks, "so this is what I'll be wearing when they find me" (link: "Continue")[ She feels the cold water rise above her head (link: "Continue")[ She thinks of Jen (link: "Continue")[ She loved her, "but Jen'll move on, she's strong, not like me" (link: "Continue")[ She has a sudden urge to fight, but it soon passes (link: "Continue")[ "It's too late, I made just one more bad choice and now I'm stuck with it.. at least this will be the last. (link: "Breathe")[ Lexi closes her eyes and lets her lungs fill will water (link: "Continue")[ She thinks, jokingly, "if there is some kind of deity out there nows the time." (link: "Continue")[ She knows nothing will help her (link: "Continue")[ This isn't what she wanted, but, something brought her here. (link: "Continue")[ She tried to fight it but she knew. (link: "Continue")[ She thinks of Jen (link: "Continue")[ "I hope she doesn't blame herself" (link: "Continue")[ Lexi closes her eyes and drifts off. (link: "Continue")[ (link: "Pass")[(goto: "Finale")] ]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]}

{<audio src=alarm_clock.mp3 autoplay>} {(live: 2s)[ (stop:) (transition: "dissolve")[Jen yawns, her piercing alarm screams]]} {(live: 8s)[ (stop:) (transition: "dissolve")[Jen sits up, and glances at the rest of her empty bed...]]} {(live: 12s)[ (stop:) (transition: "dissolve")[She thinks, "I guess Lexi got up early..." but she knows something feels wrong.]]} {(live: 18s)[ (stop:) (transition: "dissolve")[Jen gets out of bed and walks to the windows, she feels the warm air rising from the radiator vent.]]} {(live: 24s)[ (stop:) (transition: "dissolve")[Lexi's car isn't in the driveway, this isn't like her...]]} {(live: 30s)[ (stop:) {<audio src="dial.mp3" autoplay>} (transition: "dissolve")[(text-color: red)[More frantically now] she calls Lexi's phone]]} {(live: 47s)[ (stop:) (transition: "dissolve")[She gets no response]]} {(live: 50s)[(stop:)(link:"Continue")[(goto: "End")]]}

Jen has a sinking feeling. She turns on the TV, and switches to local news. She sits down and just waits, not really knowing what for. She just waits. She's nearly given up when something catches her ear: Newscaster: "It was a rather uneventful day, that is until what a key eye-witness described as, 'all hell broke loose,' according to those familiar with the incident, a small sedan came flying down this street right behind me, swerving through traffic, and then went straight off the cliffside into the water below. Recovery crews are still trying to contain the scene, however I have been informed the driver was a young woman, who did not survive the accident. The exact cause of the incident has yet to be determined-" Jen shut off the TV. She fell to the floor She was certain this was Lexi. She wishes she had known, that she could take everything back and try again, she would give anything to have Lexi back. (link: "Continue")[(goto: "End Screen")]

Regardless of if Jen knew or not. No matter how hard Lexi tried. She couldn't escape herself. In the United States alone: In 2017, there were 47,173 recorded suicides. That's an average of 129 suicides per day. These numbers are as accurate as possible, however the number is likely higher. The stigma around suicide causes underreporting and dissuades any proper conversation of the topic. Suicide is a public health crisis in America, that stems from lack of adequte mental health treatment. Until the United States adopts a state-sponsered health care system that addresses mental health head on, it is unlikely that much will change. However there are things you can do as an individual to help in your community. Know the signs: Talking about wanting to die or to kill oneself; Looking for a way to kill oneself; Talking about feeling hopeless or having no purpose; Talking about feeling trapped or being in unbearable pain; Talking about being a burden to others; Increasing the use of alcohol or drugs; Acting anxious, agitated, or reckless; Sleeping too little or too much; Withdrawing or feeling isolated; Showing rage or talking about seeking revenge; and Displaying extreme mood swings. Know the resources available to you and others: Call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255 for free and confidential support. Text chats are available as well. Text HOME to 741741 to start an SMS text chat with a trained Crisis Counselor. Credits: A twine game by: Benjamin H.G. Sound by: Benjamin H.G., SoundBible.com, and fesliyanstudios.com