“Meiguo '' is an installation consisting of sculptures and textiles based on memories from my grandmother’s archive. Attempts to grasp the past becomes a departure for new sensibilities of (be)longing. My conceptual framing is informed by racial melancholia theory, craft methods, Asian American literature and poetry. By blurring relationships between inside and outside, I hope to frame the in-between spaces that I occupy within culture, time, and place. Fabrics soaked with pomegranates, onion skins, lemon juice, and rice are joined through long durational sewing methods. Building up the textile with repetition and pattern engages with practices of writing, erasure, and remembering. I question how joining threads locates what cannot be easily translated in words yet acutely felt in the body.