“Stop pushing”, “You’re working too hard”, “Let the language help you.” These were all phrases I heard in my time at UCSD from different faculty members. What they all basically were saying: relax. Relaxation and the power of not trying to do something have been the most important things I’ve learned in graduate school. Both of these concepts came together in the production of Vieux Carré in Fall of 2016

In Vieux Carré, my second to last production at UCSD, I was cast in the role of Tye. During auditions I focused a lot of the physicality of Tye as a brutish man who didn’t care much for his physical appearance or health. I also pushed really hard to make sure everyone understood that Tye was a “bad” guy.

After realizing that although my physical life was important to the character, the more tender and intense moments would actually rely on the camera projection on the wall behind the stage. If I forced this character onto the audience, they would see through it, there was no hiding. So I had to remember the teachings of my faculty of how less is more in these moments. Now I was able to keep my body relaxed and focus my energy in the eyes and face. Soon I became so relaxed into the role it created a sensation of comfort I hadn’t experienced before.

I’ve learned that my presence is enough. Movement is not always necessary. Forcing it is never necessary. Connection and relaxation with the text is the key. Because of UCSD I have the confidence that I have the ability to do that now and for the rest of my career.